Dealing mental illness is a lot of fighting with yourself cause you know it’s not in your control but you also can’t help but try to control it
I’m a psych major and we’ve studied this a ton in classes and I know depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain and it’s not something I can force myself to get rid of, but I still struggle with trying to push myself to be happy or punish myself for being sad and depressed for no apparent reason
It’s a chronic thing and it’s no help when people just tell me to be more positive cause it just says I’m not trying hard enough and people with mental health issues already deal with so much, they don’t need “advice” from anyone telling them to suck it up
We aren’t in control of these things and we know we aren’t, but we still try to control it anyway and you telling us that we’re not working hard enough is just harmful and you perpetuate our self-hate.
TIME TO TELL LEAH ONCE AGAIN SHE IS A MAGICAL COLORFUL FAIRY: basically my synesthesia associates personalities to colors and I have to know the person a bit before my synesthesia does the lil thing, and also the longer i know someone the more i see the colors float around the person like an aura. But anyways guess what? Yours is yellow, green, and lavender. I usually associate intelligence with green so theres that, yellow and lavender im not so sure. but just so you know that u are magical,
THIS IS ALWAYS SO COOL THANK YOU I ACTUALLY LIKE THOSE COLORS TOO
Actual photo of me in high school
"do you think I could get a settlement too if I pepper sprayed some kids?" No, because you're Asian and would therefore be punished to the extreme extent of the law. Only depressed white guys get away with that stuff.
And I’m a woman, so double whammy! Ha!
I don’t know what it’s like to have a best friend. It must be nice. I’ve only had one stable friend for almost two years and that speaks volumes since everyone is temporary and people I talk to tend to be in my classes and I never hear from them again. I mean quality over quantified of course but I mean I don’t want to be overly attached to anyone either. Cause poof, they could be gone
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